hey guys listen to this observation. life is quite intense there’s many things happening. wow im feeling so intensely right now, it allows me to write, there is something to express ! hello everyone you were created to express yourselves.
I used to love asking people the question wether they have something to say. thats the question there’s no context. the answers i got made me realize how urgently i needed to get out if this life in germany! holy shite i’m so happy i have found myself in this nice jewish cocktail.
hey do you know there is not a single person on the face of this earth that was granted your experience of existence and individual set of talents, thoughts, skills. i hope you understand how much responsibility you have! the responsibility to carry your light out into the world and influence every environment you find yourself in, to influence it in the way only you can. otherwise you would have not been created.. don’t disrespect your creator by hiding yourself and being passive >:( you are quite a miracle it would be so sad to see you hide all this blessing you were made to bring into this world..
you know that feeling when you are screaming inside but so numb outside. isn’t this horrible let’s explore it! this is quite intense life is quite intense let’s not escape it
it’s actually not bad its just very confusing scary lonely and terrifying let’s embrace this
can i share something yes i can this is my blog so i will share it. i am going through a lot of changes = shifts.. in my perception of reality. many ppl do drugs to do that, ppl that are interested in what’s going on on the other side. i think this search for insight into the transcendental lead me to where I am now.. and i did try ! and what i understood from them, the bottom line is that… getting high and feeling it and having deep visions and realizations and then feeling confused and blurred and doing it all over again is not it…. it is quite shocking and maybe somewhat anticlimactic but….
The real high can happen only by working with that body, not escaping it; by prying open the doors of your perception step by step, stretching its limits a little more each day; engaging your senses, limbs, heart, mind and stomach in beautiful, divine acts daily. That’s the path to getting high and staying there. (https://www.chabad.org/library/article_cdo/aid/1769339/jewish/Should-I-Serve-G-d-With-Marijuana.htm)
the greatest joy and satisfaction is to be attained through healthy and steady involvement in.. the normal frikeng world ladies and gentlemen i know this is so disappointing theres not much spice or stimulation to it and much less excitement for the most part.. but, yes, that is the true high.. a lasting one. and a juicy chassidus maamar this will make u fly higher than any psychedelic will
there is soooooooooooo much howwwwwwww will this be handled by a mortal human being ! idk B) but ! i don’t need to know actually.. there’s all this weight.. tbh it just makes my muscles grow don’t they look sexy ! i dont need no gym for this. this is spiritual allure !!! what gym or makeup or ego or illusion can give you charisma as much as becoming a master in carrying this weight will??
ביטול i think this is the answer to all spiritual mental physical agony. just let it go broda you’re not even the master of your own house it’s funny how sometimes the easiest person to fool is ourself. i don’t want to lie to myself anymore that’s why i’m constantly trying to peel peel peel it off, first seeing it as a concept of finding oneself, peeling until you reach your core, and later discovering the concept of kelipa (if u don’t know what that means: https://www.kabbalah.com/en/articles/klipot/#:~:text=DEFINITION,through%20our%20own%20selfish%20actions.) Thats why I decided to pretty much seclude myself from my “old life” (ppl & activities / lifestyle), at first I was rly scared of losing my character and uniqueness. this is religious ppl land ppl are singing in caves in skirts and men dont look at u on the street instead of CLUB MUSIC and outfits and loitering around and catcalls it’s quite a shift i was worried of losing myself.. but all that has happened this far is me becoming a nicer person that is in tune with herself (as the yidden say peel of da klipoys see the pnimiyoys and thats exactly what’s happening… ) thx hashem shoutout to u
Put on a song that throws you back into the past and maybe feel it it very deeply like sooo deep and be overwhelmed i think the key is to be okay with not knowing what the f is going on inside isn’t that fun (what you just read is the outcome of delving into that)
i wish i could express all this feeling in a beautiful form of art maybe put all of these impressions into a refined poem or painting this is very messy isn’t it. well this is what you get ! hands touch keyboard that have access to internet hands belong to girl that feels this silly little feeling of being torn apart (finding herself) within i think i am elaborating my existence i think this is amazing ! what do you have to say about this experience we call life i would love to hear.